March 29th, 2005
|11:49 am - Spring Break|
I've done nothing....well not unless you count spacing out infront of my computer. I don't. But maybe you do. x.x Plus my history teacher thought it was a good idea to assign us a 7 page paper over the break.
He's a sadist! I swear he is.
Actually I said it to his face. Or rather, near his face while he was lecturing. I think he heard me though because I got this evil look and a D on my quiz.
So I should be working on my paper.
But I'm not. And most likely won't. ^-^
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: "Amazing Kiss" by BOA
February 20th, 2005
|10:59 pm - Just For the Hell Of It....|
I finally made a frickin my space! Unfortunatly I'm never going to update it since I'm not consistant about ANYTHING. (not usually anyway) Plus it makes my compute freeze so screw it.
Although this live journal semi-consistant isn't it? But then that's because I have nothing else to do.
Hung out with Jesse, met her freshman friend Paul. Ah, freshmen. ^-^ Went to Subway
for the first time and they asked alot of fricken questions about what I want on my sub. It's like, 'you're not building me a house lady, it's just a fricken sandwhich . Twas much fun. Plus I actually got out of the house.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "Rumors" by Lindsay Lohan
February 13th, 2005
|05:20 pm - In Peace....|
The worse part of it all...is that I'm not even sure what happened to her. She was so far away and for me one instant she was her living, smiling self I had known and the next I'm told she's gone. And in my mind her smile and laughter evaporated like smoke and I can't relate the funny, witty, life loving girl with a wann figure on a hospital bed with slit wrists.
And with all of me I wish I had been there.
And with all of me I feel guilt for not having been.
And with all of me I wish I had told her how amazing and wonderful and special she was. That there was so much charisma radiating from her that it spilled into those who didn't know her so much so that they questioned after her from me. Maybe if she had known that... that she was loved even by strangers she would have found a reason to stay.
But I didn't think to say those things I just assumed she knew. I just assumed she saw the brilliance that she radiated. And now she's gone. I really wish I could tell her I was sorry but I can't. All I can do is try and leave what little momentos I can.
Sorry Sukari. I'll light a candle for you.
The anger at those responsible will come later but for now I'll just let myself cry.
Current Mood: Remorse...
February 11th, 2005
|04:52 pm - Love and War|
Love and War?
A very intelligent man, the one who combined those two. Seems there's a very thin line between them. The love bug is spreading and personally I think that literally everyone at the High School should be bringing cans of raid in to class with them.
Blah. To steal Bridg's phrase it's like "baby rats vomitting".
My family is pissing me off, as usual. I wonder where I can find a teenage who doesn't have parent/sibling/etc problems though.
My five salvations:
1. Only RPGs
3. Music (preferably Amanda Marshall)
4. Online Comics
And while we're on the note of self entertainment I'm making a new attempt at a live jorunal RPG though it's mostly for the sake of my new story (Which I can't seem to make myself fight). Now I just have to force people to join. Oh well.
I think I'll drop in on Mandy this weekend and make her come down her again on Monday so we can spend Valentines Day being lonely together.
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: "Beautiful Goodbye" by Amanda Marshall
February 10th, 2005
|03:53 pm - Ha Ha Ha Ha|
That's just about all I have. Thank you for your attention. ^-^ We now return you to your regular viewing schedual.
I can't beleive I'm returning to this thing after...how many months. Like four? Mostly it's because one of my friends is being attacked by IMATURE 20 YEAR OLDS but we won't get into that.
I don't know.
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Whiter Shade of Pale
August 14th, 2004
|12:08 pm - It Has Returned!|
Well I'm back! My internet decided to rebel against me for a period of time but I have now returned. I've been passing the time working on my fanfiction.net stories since...well...I have no life. >.< I'm sure your
mourning celebrating right now. Summer is almost over and I've haven't gone to the beach once! Not once! Why? .....I don't know why. But when I find out and who's responsible for the injustice they will pay!
Jadis, Jesse, and 3 useless guys and I shimmied on down to Club Abyss the other day. .....Bad bad music was played and throngs of blondes in miniskirts and thongs were packed tight. All in all a scary experience. Fun...yet..scary.
I've currently aquired a jesters hat and I'm proud to say I've worn the thing for 3 straight days and the batteries are dead. (The balls on the end light up) And of course I don't know where to get another battery that friggen small so the hat no longer has as much appeal.
All in all this was a very...very boring update.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: He Is by Heather Headly
July 9th, 2004
Ever had that feeling where you had something to say, but didn't want to tell anyone? You wanted everyone to tell but would never, ever utter a word of it? Well, whether your answer is yes or no, I do, most of the time actually.
My friend is the one who suggested this to me in the first place. I spend so much time glued in front of this computer anyway that I might as well add another reason to stay pasted to this seat. I'll sit here sometimes and contemplate every factor of my life, and sometimes I can just believe I'm brave for a whole 5 minutes. But then of course something will come along and deflate my ego.
For example I got locked out of my house the other day and no one would be coming around for another 2 hours or so. There was two options, get the ladder from the backyard and climb up onto the roof (out house is a two family and we're on the top floor) and break into my room window or sit and wait. I got about half way up the ladder, looked down, and climbed my butt right back down the damn ladder then went to wait at my friend's house.
Yep. I'm afraid of heights.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Tangled Up In Me by Sky Sweetnam
July 8th, 2004
|06:12 pm - Summer....sucks|
Alright maybe it's not THAT bad but it's close! I haven't gone to the beach once yet! I was suppose to...then it rained! If that wasn't bad enough I have 1 pair of shorts left because my sister stole one pair, swearing they were hers and I got thrown in a pool wearing my other pair and for some twisted reason they won't dry! (We don't happen to have a dryer)
So my summer highlight so far has been when Jadis and me went to Edison
since Mandy's parents had to be pricks and move her miles away just before we started highschool so now my friends are dwindled down to 3! on Friday for this carnival at the church called St. Matthews. Mandy asked this Spanish guy for directions but he didn't speak English so the conversation went a bit like this:
Mandy: Do you know where St. Matts is?
Mandy: St. Matthews
Mandy: The church!
It's always nice to connect with people.
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Kopperia no Hitsugi by Yuki Kajiura
July 5th, 2004
|10:28 am - ......Morning?|
I should not be up this early! It's ungodly! This aweful hour. Whoever thought of having a 9 am? They should be punished for it! If that wasn't bad enough I've been up for a while! After rising and shining at 6:30 am to get dressed and get ready to go the beach with Mandy. And then...we have to cancel. Why? -.- It rained. I'm not a happy girl right now. I'm tired but I'm up already so I can't get back to sleep without dealing myself a horrible head injury. So instead...I'll complain!
The fireworks were awful. AWFUL! I'm embaressed for my city for condoning such atrocious displays of celebration. The highlight of the fireworks were 3 big works in a row. Other then that it was just single small works and ear piercing explosions harmonzing with the jerk's car alarm that went of after EVERY SINGLE FIREWORK!
Okay sure someone could have been stealing the car after every single firework by I highly doubt it and if you're going to get a car alarm don't get one that goes of because of sounds! Because then you wake up the whole neighborhood because someone sneezed by your car
I'm suppose to be going swimming anyway. I'm not sure I want to because them my hair will get wet which will kill the style I'd been pulling my nails out to try and keep...then I'll have to cry
again and no one will be happy.
5 days till my birthday. Never would have guessed.
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: She's Gonna Break Soon by Less than Jake
July 4th, 2004
|06:23 pm - Woo!|
The forth of July! Oh yea! .....Alright it's really not that exciting. I'm actually pretty darn bored right now. Gabrielle's in the backround watching DareDevil with the tv up as loud as she can make it go without hooking surround sound speakers up to it. And I'm trying to drown her out with the soothing tones of Saiyuki and Sir-Mix-Alot. A potent combination and actually rather humerous when you play them back to back, granted of course that you know what the Saiyuki song For Real translates into.
I'm also flipping through stories on FanFiction.net. Lots of fun particularly because I have atleast 5 accounts but most of them are shared ones.
I'm going to watch fireworks with Danni in a little while so I'm just staring at the computer screen to pass time. I should probaly work on my story but...well I don't feel like it. I got a page or two done yesterday but then I decided I'd rather make something to eat so I went to the store with Erin. I know I probaly shouldn't replacing finishing my novels with spur of the moment grocery outings but...well the cheesburgers and fries were a very delicious conclusion.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Jump On It by Sir Mix-Alot